angst cycle (iii) — [υ] (i)

i could never handle treachery
childhood events dear boy childhood events
i think she knew this
i think she knew herself
so perhaps that
“i don’t do binary”
was more friendly than it seemed

perhaps i’m over–reading
perhaps the sky is often blue
perhaps the reminder was lucky
perhaps it was always going to come
and initiate this final cut
probably final

time is slowly unfocusing the pain
but it’s so damn slow
one minute per minute
i need to move on
although anything now
i’m still so loaded with poison
it’d be unfair on anyone else

i looking at another country
again