angst cycle (iii) — [β] (iii)

i can’t remember a time
it’s ever been reciprocated

enough of the consequential pain
soon taught me
not to chase
in the first place

but i was still approached
and the approach
created
what became
this pain

each and every time

i’ll admit
i simply

don’t

understand

why

the approach

i know it isn’t
but it feels
as though
the approach
and persistence
is there
to cause
the pain

that’s only ever
been

the

result

none of it
makes any sense
none of it
makes sense

any sense

i am happy
left alone

i don’t understand
any of this

i don’t understand
i’ve never understood