angst cycle (iii) — [ƹ] (i)

it is a great regret
and an utter unsurprise
that when i think her name
the anger is a reprise

i’ve spent the last
month six weeks eight i don’t know
re–establish–ing a sanity
a san–ity a doldrum sea on a

so i have not the anger dealt
with the anger it is not died
the intensity screams again
but muffled like a sleeve in a

so i am a what to do
i have not engaged the strategy i agreed with me
i have by chance faux—errored—slashed a hope
had the strategy had a run the faux would not be so

had had had
and after a break a fire alarm
the strategy must become a real history