angst cycle (iii) — [E] (v)

the way she said him
fuck–ups happen at him
all by chance
not him

he took responsibility
spent his flatmate’s dosh
never occurred to him
it might rain
can’t earn it back
before the landlord’s day

he’s only 37
and three quarters
a shocking new experience
losing a job
it only happens
once a month

oh dear
he’s got no money
not his fault at all
not at all

thing is
she always settles with a guy
who can’t write poetry
it might be a competition thing
i see that
for me
it’d be narky
with an engineer

but this deadbeat
doesn’t know
he can’t write poetry
perhaps prose
not poetry

i want intelligence
she said
she said
the hypocrisy should be laughable
perfect pun

an intelligent guy
would see the pattern
deal with it
perhaps he has
girls with flats and hearts
there’s always more

you know how it is
i can’t be neutral
feelings need to out
i’m throttled by the spider