angst cycle (iii) — [F] (iv)

at night
even if a’work
to hide
it’s deep sad
i am

no drink
i sleep alone

i’ve lost the should be life
unity of minds

my failure
to engage
engage was required

ok i maybe failed
persuade was required

but i’ve lost
a should be life
unity of mind

engage was required
i was silent
riding conversation
digging up no niceties
blustering the otherness
forcing the discussion
to persuade
to persuade

i lost

deeply sad
i’ve lost